月は故郷の明

喜歡仰望星空，喜歡等待深秋的到來，喜歡烈日下倚微的斜陽，喜歡一個人發呆，喜歡一個人感受，喜歡一個人寫作......＂一個人總是要走陌生的路，看陌生的風景，品陌生的人生＂倦了，累了怎能停下歇息，我要的是冬日梅花的久遠，我要的是沒有彩虹弧度的embroidery factory等候。

在漫漫求學路上，經受了多少荊棘？跨過了多少港灣？這一路經心走來，這一路含奮鬥而追求，這一路傷感疼痛一並襲來，這一路高潮即將到來，又有什麼理由選擇退縮，又有什麼權利選擇放棄，這一路剩下的不就是奮筆疾書，這一路剩下的的不就懸卷帙浩繁。

繁星點點，夏蟬相鳴，相間流逝，轉世，滄桑，淒涼，無奈，曾幻想的夢境，在繁複期間，是空寂，是別樣的傷感。我倦眷的斜陽 ，我信仰的星空，我追求的銀河。Have now there is stilI hope left！初中的生活洗濯了空氣的清新，初中的追求淹沒了繁星的浩瀚，初中的期望是否可以戰勝無數求學的學生？

帶著自己的夢day after day.每日的課堂，每日的習題，每日的等候，像這樣成就的是什麼？為什麼說到做不到，為什麼每次都是自己帶著自己的wset課程傷感匆匆離開校園，沒有與同學的嬉戲，沒有與老師的交流，沒有與家長的問候，只有彩虹異然的孤獨。當第一顆星閃閃升向夜空，當第一聲問候稍無聲息的從窗口傳來，當第一片雲朵點綴薄藍天空，學會的不是等候，是不斷的追求，是不斷的渴望，那帶著追求與不懈的渴望！

一切都與死魚般沉靜，孤獨與空虛，又在心底回放，受夠了想象，受夠了不該承受的痛苦，受夠了壓抑的心情，受夠了虛偽的世俗，受夠了承諾，受夠了一切，只是......有一陣風使我----默言！我不知未來如何，我不知想象有多殘酷，我不知回憶有多無情，我更不知...我為何如此不珍惜。受夠了憐愛的轎花是會枯萎的；受夠了憐愛的魚兒是無法生存的；受夠了憐愛的自己更是無法站起來的。

也許，轉眼，一瞬，世俗又即將改變，一切又都過去，越回憶越憂傷，越憂傷越痛苦，我又為何自己折磨自己呢？我只要帶著自己的夢，走屬於自己的路，創屬於自己的世界，又何不可呢？繁夏的夢，自己的夢繁夏的期待，夢的期待繁夏的追求，自己的追求繁夏的不舍，夢的不舍繁夏的淒涼與寂靜，依在夜幕上的星辰上閃耀；繁夏的Asian college of knowledge management無知與懵懂，依在繁夏上的輕風中蕩漾。  

兒子一直念叨著想看看我當初上大學的城市，這個周末，恰逢在江蘇大學讀書的姨侄放暑假，帶著大姐接他回家的命令，於是，一家仨口有了一次短暫的鎮江遊。

周五晚七點多，重新踏上這座曾經徒步丈量過的城市，心中情感千頭萬緒，有欣喜，有激動，有親切，有想念，有回憶，還有一絲輕輕的歎息。曾經，這兒的一山一水，一草一木，都是那麼熟悉。曾經，這兒與我朝夕相伴，榮辱與共，留下太多的印記。曾經，這兒，我度過了人生最美好的光陰，也有過一生中最難忘的青春回憶……

循著我年輕時踏過的足跡，我們遊了焦山、北固山，去了西津渡，逛了大市口。

鎮江三山中雖以金山最有名，可當初年輕的心裏，仍是把焦山排在第一位，那古樸幽靜的自然景色，那豐富的人文景觀，最為喜歡。所以，我當導遊，焦山排在了此行的第一站。焦山，其實是個島嶼，是個四面環水的綠色島嶼。傳說東漢末年名士焦光來此隱居，朝廷曾三詔其出仕，但焦公不為所動，終老山中。百姓為紀念他，稱此山為焦山。幾分鐘的輪渡，我們便來到了位於長江中間的焦山。時值炎夏，遊人稀少，但這兒一點也沒有炎熱的感覺，夾道都是蒼天的遮陽樹，空氣清新，風輕輕地吹著，特別的涼爽特別的舒服。一路走，一路的風景，定慧寺、古炮臺、碑林、吸江樓、萬佛塔……好像景都還是當初的景，可依稀又有新的內容和新的感覺。猶記憶最深的是乾隆的行宮，那兒有茂竹有亭子有皇宮的影子，曾經我們宿舍裏的幾個穿著皇後妃嬪的衣服在這兒花枝招展，而今卻只顯蕭條。爬上山頂，坐在江邊，滿山滿目的青翠，聽山風呼嘯，間隙還能傳來幾聲布穀鳥的叫聲。此刻，只要這樣靜靜地坐著，什麼也不用想，什麼也不要想，而心境悠遠寧靜……

對北固山的情感最為複雜，那個離我們原來的學校只有一路之隔的天下第一江山，曾經無數次地踏足。清晨時的鍛煉，黃昏時的散步。春日江畔的尋花，夏日傍晚的納涼，秋日午後的獨步，冬日雪後的私語。這兒的甘露寺，多景樓，鐵塔，多景樓，祭江亭……即使閉著眼睛，也都能一一數得出來。這兒，承載著我年少時最美麗的夢。沿路而上，順階而登，仿佛只是一瞬間，關於這兒的一切都異常清晰，我又回到那段歲月那個故事。多少年了，卻恍惚當初心跳的感覺。在這兒，曾有一個人默默相伴，一起臨江而望，一起登山拾趣，一起談古論今，一起歡聲笑語，這兒，曾融入了我最狂熱的青春之戀。這是畢業之後的第一次重遊，有些留戀，有些傷感，有些壓抑，一切都那麼熟悉，卻又如此陌生。先生適時握住我的手，問：是不是感慨多多？淺笑，點頭卻又輕輕搖頭，故事再美，終已成往事，如微風一吹，總會消失得無影無蹤。那麼，這重遊，何嘗不也是一種告別，告別不舍，告別寄托，輕輕轉身，只留最初的美好。

回程前的一個晚上，先生陪我去當初的校園逛了一圈。一切皆物是人非，再也找不著當初教學樓解剖樓實驗樓的影子，完全已是江蘇大學附屬醫院的一部分，僅存的是我們當初的宿舍樓也已成為研究生部。操場已改小，唯一沒有變化的便是進門道路兩側的樹木依舊高高大大，迎風而立。一路上，我緊緊拉著先生的手，左看右看，叨叨絮絮著學院從前的模樣，我曾經吃飯看書的地方……先生總是安靜地聽著，並迎合著我心底深處的感歎，適時勸慰著。確實，那些風景那些故事可沉澱成記憶的永恒，唯有時光，它匆匆流逝，握不全，留不住。離開校門的時候，我回首，眼角不自覺已有淚，而心底更是一片潮濕……先生擁著我寵溺地笑：真是多愁善感的小女人！

倒底是時過境遷，往昔如過往雲煙。重溫故景，回望經年，一切似曾相識，一切又如隔岸觀花！有些許惆悵，有些許感傷。

時光的魔方呀，總在不停地轉動，感謝相依相伴最親愛的你，給了我最大的勇氣來緬懷過去，迎接嶄新的未來！回首，守住美好，以更淡然坦然的心，與歲月與你一起慢慢變老！  

The Ashes has stood tall as the pinnacle of Australian cricket for well over a century, but Michael Clarke says he won't be defining his own career by what unfolds over the next six weeks in England.

Clarke understands that critics and the history books are likely to judge his captaincy on his success or failure against the old enemy.

But the 32-year-old is adamant he won't let the memories of his career be dictated by the results of the back-to-back Ashes series to come, starting with the first Test at Trent Bridge on Wednesday.

Clarke attempted to play down the widely held belief in Australia and England that the Ashes is more important than any other contest in international cricket.

The skipper emphasised that Ashes hype and the effect it has on careers is more relevant for fans than players.

"Unfortunately, there's times you don't make runs, the team doesn't win and the captain is accountable for that. I completely understand that. But I don't feel like this will be the make or break of my legacy as an Australian cricketer," Clarke said.

"I feel that the legacy you leave as a cricketer is what you do through your career - the ups and downs, the journey along the way.

"I understand the perception, especially as captain, that if you have success here, you might get recognised as a better captain than if you fail.

"But because we win this series, I don't automatically become a good captain. I don't think that's right lace and embroidery.

"... I'm no more disappointed if we lose the first Test against England than if we lose the first Test against South Africa or India. And the excitement when we win will be no different."

Perhaps the skipper is trying to take pressure off his young side, or himself, with Australia staring down the barrel of a third straight Ashes series loss for the first time since the 1950s.

However, it will be interesting to see whether England interpret his comments as bluff or perhaps a sign of fear, after their captain Alastair Cook took the opposite stance.

Cook says the Ashes can define careers and believes it's up to players to deal with the fact that playing on this stage is bigger than anything else.

"I think they're the biggest Test matches we can play," Cook said.

"It's not the be all and end all (but) ... I think it can define a career.

"The external pressure, the hype, there is more media interest and more interest in the country in general. Players who are aware of that and can deal with that (will be successful)."

England's side will feature zero surprises and will double their counterparts for Ashes caps.

Typically, Cook believes the big-time experience will favour his side, while Clarke is confident it won't be a factor.

The Australians have deliberately tried to keep England guessing with their final XI.

Peter Siddle is favoured to combine with James Pattinson and Mitchell Starc as the fast bowling attack, while Ed Cowan and David Warner are tipped to fill the jigsaw pieces in the batting order.

Opposing spinners Graeme Swann and Nathan Lyon are expected to be more important at Trent Bridge than in years past, with the wicket dry and the weather likely to be warm.

Australia likely: Shane Watson, Chris Rogers, Ed Cowan, Michael Clarke (capt), Phil Hughes, David Warner, Brad Haddin, Peter Siddle, Mitchell Starc, James Pattinson, Nathan Lyon

England likely: Alastair Cook (capt), Joe Root, Jonathan Trott, Kevin Pietersen, Ian Bell, Jonny Bairstow, Matt Prior, Stuart Broad, Graeme Swann, Steven Finn, James Anderson